Author: Kris

Heath you know I love you but this shits FUNNY

TacoGuy 888: yea he tlaked to me on his phone for like 10 MINUTES
TacoGuy 888: i was like what what
KrisFnBS: WHAT!!!!!!
KrisFnBS: all time RECORD

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Yeah so the past few days have been pretty fun and all except for the fact that ive been sick and tired. I found out that I got an 84 on my business midterm which im kind of dissapointed and happy about… I figured that I would get 5-6 questions wrong and instead I got 8 wrong… I should have studied more for it though.The questions that I got wrong were tricky though, some of them acctually had multiple answers and blah blah blah. So a few days ago I was play basketball with Heath, Omar, Cj, Ander, and someone else…hmmm who was it..oh yea Jose. My team lost both games but whatever. I need to buy more alcohol tomorrow night or maybe saturday night I dunno. I finally cleaned my room a few days ago and now its all fucked up again..lol just kidding its aite. I gotta work tomorrow and saturday and then I only work on friday of next week…. next week I got 1 training to do for this one company that pays 10 an hour and another company that supposively pays 20+ an hour. I cant wait to acctually start working at this casino place… its gonna be SOOO tight… Cuz you know I cant acctually start dealing for a real casino in AC until im 21 and such. Anyways im soo freakin bored right now im tryin 2 get my mind of eating cuz I dont feel like getting up to make the food… see this is why fast food is so great… cuz you dont have to make the food… but when your home at night you acctually have to make it… when its mcdonalds or taco bell gonna deliver at night and shit…ugh im soo lazy aite well im out for now… gonna go watch some tv.

aight if anyone thinks that last post was me just messing around….

I WASNT MESSING AROUND…….100% scary….

now im off to sleep and lets see what ill dream about tonight…

Yeah…. so I just woke up a few hours ago…and im acctually kind of pissed off at this dream I had.. dream went like this…

First im just chillin at home doin whatever… then all of a sudden caf426(chris) gets online…im like wtf is this….maybe im seeing things..but im not.. so I IM him…

me- chris?
him- yeah?
him- sup?
me- wtf this has got to be a joke
him- what are u talking about man
me-i thought u were dead?
him- nah man im not dead
me- dude r u fucking serious
him- yea man dude call me’
me-…..ok….ring ring….
him- yo man wasup(on phone now)
me- dude i cant believe u faked ur own death
him- dude i had to man u dont understand
me-…. wtf are u talking about i dont understand?
him- just remember…. remember real hard
me- dude tell me whats up…
him- dont tell anyone about this man, or i will come for you
caf426 signed off
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what the FUCK! and i mean what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck to the EXTREME

Then I wake up look on my phone and see that the last person I called was chris at 5:15 am in the morning

Ok so i think im headed in the direction of some of that changes that I want to make.. however im starting to do things that I normally dont really do… like im smoking a little bit more than I used to… not really enough to kill me or anything, but smoking in general is bad. Its totally in control and all, so as long as I can control it ill be fine. Im not one of those addicts that smoke for like 25 years like my mom and all. Although I can acctually see where smoking addicts come from… like i understand about nicotine and all. I always thought it was just very easy to quit smoking… and for me it is totally easy… but I can still feel like this craving to have a cigarette.

Continue reading “no words”

Ok- off the seriousness, ive spent the last 3-4 hours in my room just watching tv and thinking about life in general. I thought about every aspect and every goal that I have accomplished, and have failed over the past 2 years. I thought about the absolute highs, average and the lows. Ive thought about alot of changes that I wanted to make over the years, how I have tried to change old bad habbits and how I am finally after all of this time going to be a better person by stopping all of the little things I do to annoy my friends, myself and last but not least my family.

Continue reading “life thoughts”

so on my way home from college I get into an argument with my mom tonight. She starts telling me that she has all these medical problems with her back and headaches and shit and she needs $33 from me so she can get this prescription in the morning for it. My mom has no fucking job, no car… she has nothing at all but me my sister and this crappy little apartment we live in. no savings, no nothing. No education, no nothing. all she knows how to do is clean houses which does make like 30-40k a year but she hasnt been cleaning houses for over 4 years now. she does nothing at all. and every single day all she has is medical problems medical problems and MORE medical problems… oh yeah not to mention like the couple thousand in DEBT she is due to all the hospital visits over the past couple of years from having NO INSURANCE…. oh yeah and having no insurance is part of having no JOB. So what the fuck am I suppost to do? I mean god damn i’m just a 19 year old kid still living with my mom going to college? what am I suppost to pull 5k out of my ass like paris hilton and just make everything right? No im sorry I dont have the luxary of growing up with a rich family that acctually helps their children get a car… or helps their children go live on their own.. or even help their children pay for their college. No see I have none of that… its all about what I can do to survive in this never ending bullshit I call life. You know what fucking pisses me off? I see my mom suffer from day to day and night to night and all I can do is watch. I dont even have the ability to help one bit. Only if I had like 10k All problems would be fixed. Its really starting to annoy me because of the fact that I am fucking smarter than the average kid my age, I fucking make good decisions in life and acctually know where im fucking going to be when im 25 and such. If i grew up in a more fortunate family I would fucking be at UMD right now and be getting 3.5’s and 4.0’s and shit like I should be getting. But no i just cant do that right now. I have to worry about my fucking best friends dying and helping my mom pay her bills and shit when she should be helping me. you know thats what fucking parents are suppost to do. I tell my mom she should come to MC for like a year and get a degree in something that she can sit behind a desk… like management or something… but she claims shes never going to school again. I mean what the fuck can I do? if she doesnt want to go to school to make something of herself… not like I can force her. Right now im just in a fucking pissed off mood and dont really feel like dealing with this bullshit anymore. Im just fucking sick of it all.

I want the things I deserve in life, I want to give my mom the things she deserves in life, but I cant fucking do that if all of these fucking things keep getting in the WAY.

yo yo… so im like really really pissed off about the whole death of one of my best friends… and all these people who believe in god are like telling me it happend for a “reason” and im just like… I dont think their is a reason why a very good person that is only 24 years of age has to die. So I was like….really pissed off and I challenged “god” to come and face me while I was sleeping… like I was talking mad shit to him………I believed in god when I was younger, but I havnt believed ever since my dad died 4 years ago for practically the same reason as my friend Chris. dad- 36, chris-24… whats with these young deaths and shit? There is no good reason, so I dont think its a reason. Therefore I dont believe in god, and I never will believe in something that cannot be proven. I was always 50-50 on believing in god and all… never quite knew if I did or didnt… but now I definately know I dont.