Category: Xanga Old Posts

This section is for Xanga posts I wrote before the website shut down.

my friend died.

yo yo… so im like really really pissed off about the whole death of one of my best friends… and all these people who believe in god are like telling me it happend for a “reason” and im just like… I dont think their is a reason why a very good person that is only 24 years of age has to die. So I was like….really pissed off and I challenged “god” to come and face me while I was sleeping… like I was talking mad shit to him………I believed in god when I was younger, but I havnt believed ever since my dad died 4 years ago for practically the same reason as my friend Chris. dad- 36, chris-24… whats with these young deaths and shit? There is no good reason, so I dont think its a reason. Therefore I dont believe in god, and I never will believe in something that cannot be proven. I was always 50-50 on believing in god and all… never quite knew if I did or didnt… but now I definately know I dont.

RIP CHRIS FLAJSER

Sunday February 27, 2005
This post goes out to one of my best friends Chris Flajser who passed away this past wednesday. I dont even know what to think or what to say… but im gonna miss you man… such a great loss not only for me, but for everyone. only 24 years old…. 24 years old………..you were one of the very few best friends that I have, and for you to just be up and gone so quick is devistating to me, and to alot of other people. I’m really gonna miss you man…

I’m gonna miss your presence at the card table… work….patriots games, and when we pulled that insane 35 hour shift where we almost died from no sleep..

RIP- February 23rd, 2005

Posted 2/27/2005 at 12:16 AM

to my father RIP

This post goes out to my one and ONLY father.

RIP DAD September 26th, 1964- February 13th, 2001- You will always be remembered for your love and smiles and you really knew how to cheer someone up when they were down.

I remember the first time I heard about your death, I thought it was a joke. However it was not a joke.. the day I saw you at the viewing, I still thought it was just a big joke and that you were going to come out of your cofin and start laughing. However I felt really really sad for samantha, you know since you all were alot closer than me and you.

I went to your gravesite today for the first time in about 2-3 years and brought back alot of memories…RIP

cold

Breaking Benjamin – So Cold

Crowded streets all cleared away
One by One
Hollow heroes separate
As they run

You’re so cold
Keep your hand in mine
Wise men wonder while
Strong men die

[Chorus]

Show me how it ends it’s alright
Show me how defenseless you really are
Satisfied and empty inside
That’s alright, let’s give this another try

If you find your family, don’t you cry
In this land of make-believe, dead and dry

You’re so cold, but you feel alive
Lay your hands on me one last time

I see now.

Crossfade – Cold

Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high

What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold to you

And I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
I never meant to be so cold

I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold