Happy Birthday mom….I know I didnt get to talk to you on the phone tonight for 2 reasons.
A. You were sleeping all day(still currently are)
B. I got off work around 7 and work 15 hours tomorrow therefore I must sleep asap.
Man I have so much to write I really dont have time to write it tonight. I wanna lay those words down in all aspects of my life..I just dont know.. today was such a long long day in my mind… I was thinking about like everything in my life and how things and people have led me where I am today. Im gonna end up writing a long ass post sometime soon…Im just gonna come out and say it and thats gonna be that cuz I dont want to hold these feelings inside anymore, because right now thats killing me more than the 80 hours a week im putting in at work.
Im also going to write my mom and letter and mail it to her because I know that would mean more to her than me just calling her to tell her happy birthday. Letters tend to be more meaningful anyways and I dont think ive ever done such a thing before.
Mom if you only KNEW how much I love you, and what I would GIVE just to see you happy again.
“Change is never easy, you fight to hold on ; you fight to let go- The Wonder Years”
