Me at the moment- basically everything you could imagine. Ive been thinking about my future lately. Thinking of all the possibilities(kind of like calculating odds in poker) that lead to a final conclusion of: How can I become a millionare in the quickest possible time? Because without a doubt, it will happen, its just a matter of time. During that long and great adventure, im going to have the best time of my life experiencing ALOT of drugs… oh wait i didnt say that I meant THINGS…..lol jk. Drugs ruin life. Theres just so much to do in a short amount of time. Ive been alive almost 7,000 days… amazing right?……too bad i didnt save a dollar a day. Something else ive been thinking alot about lately is……..I would really like to meet somebody that is just like me. that grew up like me…… experienced things like me… just understands why I am the way I am. Everyone should really look past all the money and see who I really am. Day by day I experience a pretty fucked up life in most aspects, which makes me who I am and which also makes me so unique. I am not perfect in any way, yet I believe that I am somewhat of a fucked up person. Ive learned to cope with that and just move on. Ive also been thinking alot about my dads death back in 9th and my cats death nearly 3 months ago. Both meant alot to me which I never got a chance to say goodbye. Just yesterday I remember working with him and spending the whole day with him. Although it was a bigger loss for my sister since she was closer to him, I still feel pretty bad about it. WHy couldnt “GOD” fucking kill someone who was meaningless in the world? ugh, just pisses me off. I could make all the money in the world and it still wouldnt bring them back. Just makes me think whats going to happen when my mom dies?………………………………………………………For all I know it will be the day I graduate college and im waiting for her to attend, and then I get the news. Fuck god. Now im pissed…. Im out.
