Just another private update to myself. My life totally sucks right now. Im still about a grand in debt, and dont know how to pay it off. Im working at walden right now, but thats not enough money. Im still trying to get my ebay back on, but this is taking longer than I thought. I really need money. My grades in school are slipping, and that I blame on money. If I had my car by now, or even if I lived on campus… I would be going to school on a daily basis. God damnit. I had the life…. I really fucking had the life and then one day I watching the wsop on tv and it consumed me. Then I lost alot of money on it, but then andy also lost alot of my money on it too. Which really really fucking sucked major shit. Then he said he needed help with money, so I offered to help him with my business. ugh man why did I do that. I couldnt afford to help him, so why did I? I should have looked after myself, and then tried to help him all I could. Instead I ended up giving him over 4,000 with that shit and he paid me back the 2,000 with the 4,000 he made on ebay with my business. What a huge mistake I made. Ive been spending the last couple of months trying to think why it happend to me. I cant totally blame andy for my debt, but theres somewhat to blame. Its also me too. I have become a very lazy person, Very depressed, and lonely with no girl I guess. AH I really dontknow what to do. My plans right now are to get all of that shit behind me and just move the fuck on. Shit happens in life and most of the time it wont go your way… or especially my way, because my luck sucks at all. I need to get myself out of debt, in the meanwhile… I need to fucking get my grades up for school, and then I need to GET alot of fucking money… then get my fucking car, so I can drive that shit the way I want to and have mad fun. by christmas…. I will have 10k in the fucking bag AND NO TURNING BACK. At that point… I will have enough money to do alot of things and not have to worry about asking my friends for a couple of dollars to go and eat some taco bell. AH I need to find a way! A way is the way!!
