| I try and I fucking try and no matter what I do its not good enough for anybody. whether its my fucking mom or my girlfriend or my bigger sister it just doesnt matter.i give and i give and what do I get in return? fucking bitching in my face all of the time. all im asking for is a normallife but noooooooooooooo what am i given?fucking bullshit whining bitches always angryand downgrading shit. i work my fucking ass off…i make plenty of timefor you man i fucking do everything for your ass… i fucking feed you i buy you shit i fucking care about you so much and your a fucking spoiled mother fuckiner BRAT. you mother fucking single child mofos fuck all of you. you all piss me off. I dont even ask for much…is that too much to fucking ask!?!?!?! i just dont understand all of this shit. its like your fucking 13 years old man howthe fuck can i talk to you when your a fucking baby half of the time. i always go to your fucking events i drive all over for your ass man i doso much for you and i get bitched at every day about the stupidest things. so fucking what if i have my friends over ONCE A MONTH kickin back and relaxing WHEN YOU DONT WORK FORTHE NEXT 3-4 DAYS. its not my fault you suck at sleeping. take a fucking PILL you fucking baby. cry your fucking eyes out im getting sick of fighting with you. you dont fucking understand anything I tell your ass because your spoiled ass hasnt been through ANYTHING. wah wah mother fucking WAH. you seriously need some meds to help you out or whatever ebcause your fucking weak and aggrivating the shit out of me. i know i take you for granted sometimes, but you always fucking take me for granted. just sit back and think about what I fucking do for you WHILE I SLEEP ON THE MOTHER FUCKING COUCH TONIGHT.
GOD FUCKING DAMNIT. EVERY FUCKING TIME SOMETHING IS GOING RIGHT IN MY LIFE LATELY YOU BRING ME DOWN. IF YOUR GOING TO BE THAT WAY, DONT FUCKING TALK TO ME. GROW THE FUCK UP. IS THAT DEEP ENOUGH FOR YOU? why the fuck did my dad have to die why the fuck does my mom haveto be a fucking dumbass and do crack all the fucking time why the fuck did i have to see nothing but bullshit growing up day after day and not fall into that path…i decided i was going to take the fucking opposite route which is the logical route and still i get fucked in the ass forit. why is it that everytime i get realy depressed i drown myself in sorrow by drinking. why do I have such a shitty fucking fdamily that does nothing for me. why do i care about some of them so much but couldnt carel ess about the oterhs. i dont want to cause any harm i just want to livemylife. work come homehave fun raisekidsallthat kind of stuff. i never have anyone to talk to because i really dont know abny body who has seen the shit that i have seen maybe like 2 people but i dont ever see them that ften and i dont realyknow them thatwell. sometimes I just cry and cry and just want someone to be there but sometimes being ther isnt enough you need to feelw ahat i feel and see wht i see and you just dont.you know i always help people when i can. yeah im not a big churc h gu but hey i give homeless people food and dollars sometimes.i always help people out when they need a hand wit something. why the fuck does my bigsister have to date some fucking ghetto piece of shit who hits her and fucking beats her and her kids man i want to fucking snap this blackmother fucking guys neck apart but noooo i dont because she looooves hi and blah blah man this mother fucker is going to get it coming to him. i wanh his ass to fucking be burned alivethis piece of shit deserves to die immediately not my dad what the fuck dd he do? NOTHING he devoted his life to his daughter and changed his whole entire life around.he stopped drinking, smokeing allof that shit and what does he get?a fucking heart attack. I didnt even get tosay goodbye to him allI got was looking at hi faceto face when i was just 14 years oold and my sister was only 10….. 10 fucking years old. i can only imagine what my sister has been put through. she hasnt even hit 18 yet and she already knows what real lifeis. i just want to be normal man thats all i want. i mean i drive a POS car but man i paid for that shit. that is my sweat andblood into that car. i dont care as long as it gets me places. i always tryand look at life asit couldalways be somuch worse and thats my motto…day after day. i used to write back in here heavily back in fallof 2005 andmid 2004…and i really stoppeed because i found soeone whom i want to spend the rest of my life with but sometimes it jst gets so hard. man fuck it sowhat if im almost a 22 year old virgin fuck that shit i dont care ill go being a virgin my whole entire life thats not what i want in life fuck it ill adopt my kids at least they would apreciate life coming from a shelter of some sort intoa failyhome. all i want is honest peopel an d caring people in mylife. sofucking what if i usedto smoke weedand drink all of the fucking time i stillfucking worked and paid mother fucking bills at the age of 16 mother fuckers. im the one who paid my moms $700 electric bill,, im the one who paid my moms $400 storage bill imthe mother fucker who has lent people moey overthe years.im the MOTHER FUCKER WHO DOESNT CASRE ABOUT MONEY BECAUSE IM WILLING TO HELP EPOPEL IN MOTHER FUCKING NEED. d;jkasbdjkasgdgadjkasgduigvqwduiqweuiqpwegfuiqegfuiacgfagfvjgfvweyjhgfvehyjwgfvjkfkl;sj what the fuck! why do you have to be so selfish whyu cant you stop and think about what you sayu before you sayit. fuck it im drowning theis shit before i sleep and im going to sleep and going to work tomorrow just reeber one day im not going to fucking be here and youll be sorry dont fucking take me for gfranted.
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