2009. Wow ts 2009. Who would have thought I would live this long? I coulda been dead a year ago. I am so grateful to live. Listen people… just be thankful that you are doing the most important thing that keeps you alive. BREATHING. Obviously without it your no more than a rock. For the last 2 years or so most days have been typically the same for the most part. Sure you get to work, and then after that live your life in bars, clubs, playing sports, entertainment, road trips and things like that….but it gets to a point where im thinking to myself, DAMN im 23. and that is no joke. I so thankful that I have a good life. I dont know who to get down on my knees to thank… but FUCK I could have it so worse. You know I actually feel bad that I have it do good compared to other people that I literally want someone to blow my arm off so I can feel better ya know what I mean? I merely took my life in an entire different direction from when I lived in laurel. Growing up people always telling me how much potential I had but never tried hard enough, well here it is people…and I believe the outcome is outstanding. There are really only 2 things in my life that I am not happy with, and that is I am not in school at the moment, and to know that their is absolutely nothing I can do to help my mother, because after so many years it straight hit me in the fact that she just doesnt want to help herself. You HAVE to want to help. You HAVE to wake up every morning and get that fucking determination MAN. Fuck I cant explain it. Its like resident evil or something…I just get up and do things and feel this crazy rush throughout my entire body. I get so focused into certain things and I wont stop until I succeed. Has my life gone as planned as I thought it would since high school? Yeah I think it has. You know some rough ups and downs and shit like that but overall im completely happy with what I have become and what I have accomplished. Not many people really know me well enough to understand why I do what I do and why my life has come to the way it is. But I will tell you this…the people that know me are extremely fortunate to have me as a friend. I will never stop trying to help people, every day I look for something I can do to better my life, but more importantly someone elses life.
Stay determined and you WILL succeed.
